Monday, May 25, 2009
♥ mixed feelings.
四伯伯,他走了。。。Having not met my paternal family for the longest time, I was extremely uneasy, uncomfortable today. I don't know why, Iwas alittle scared, felt like crying. Mummy wasn't there. But thank God, the presence of my brother made me feel slightly better.
I'm just tired of hearing him boasting and boasting, talking so loudly to people. When will he learn? How I wish I could close my ears and run away. Enough.
The little test came. The taoist rituals began, he asked me to go over.
I told him: I will not hold any jossticks. The word NO was in my heart, and I started praying in my heart, talking to God while the priest chants and chants.
And rituals went on, one round after another. Exhausted.
All you want was face at the expense of others.
It just came so clearly to my heart once again today, though I don't have a good earthly father, but I know I have a Heavenly Father who always loves me and a great spiritual father in my life. Enough to surpass everything.
Tonight, I see things even more clearly.
I will have no other Gods before You, Only You will reign as my heart's King. I will have no other Gods before You, I will put You first in everything. With all my heart, with all my soul, With all my might, I want to love You Lord.